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Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.
Saturday, April 11, 2009, 10:32:00 PM
Happy Bday Syuk!
Helo all! Sorry i didnt update my blog yesterday. Felt super tired.! Went to work damn early in the morning when sir suddenly messaged me asking if I was on my way. At work it was fun cause customers kept coming in and I dont feel that bored. But i miss Mam Nor alot! Long time never disturb her seii! Hahas. Ended up i disturbed Aidil for mopping all around the outlet and was drowned by his own sweat! Pitiful seii.. Then, i rushed home to bring Salsa meals for my parents and rushed back to the station bus and took the bus to meet my sister aka mummy at tamp! We ran around and again kecoh2 alot while on our way to meet abg aka ayah at Pasir Ris. Met him and again he asked so hw's abg?(baby aka abg) SO i told him that he messaged me (:D) me when i was working saying that he may not be able to come for today's outing :'( as he is going to Malaysia. If he could come back earlier he would join us. Felt so sad. I was looking forward to meet him but he went out with his family.
Then we took pictures but all is in mummy's phone. She have not send to me yet. So then, I went home feeling so tired and so i went to sleep!
Today came! 11 April 2009! My bestie, syukrie's birthday! Was actually hoping he will come down. But ya. He didnt. Haish... Today was ok larh.
i really hope Syuk and ayah had fun today. I wasnt in the mood and i'm sorry if i affect the days spent. Thanks to the rest for helping me to make the day better. Hmm... Im feeling super tired now.. Want to rest leii.. B
efore that, look at these pictures!
efore that, look at these pictures! 
Baby, I am so sorry. Forgive me for all the negative thoughts that kept running through my mind. I thought u lied to me. But in the end, you were telling the truth. Maybe I was too much. I'm so sorry for not trusting your words. and now you're back! called your handphone then i put down. Have a good rest dear.
Baby, I am seriously so sorry. i am trying to think positive. I am trying my best! I've been feeling so alone. When will we meet again baby? I hope it will be soon.
Missing you! :'(
Somethimes i wonder..
Am i being a good girl for you?
I know i'm not perfect
But i hope i could be the best for you.
Neither do i wish to hurt you.
Losing you have never been in my wish list
Loving you wholeheartedly
Cherishing you
Being with you
Is at the top of my list
Forgive me for my mistakes
Forgive me for not being able to get over the past hurts
Looking forward for the future
Where i could pamper you
When i could prove to you
I am trying my best to be the best for you
Baby
No matter how far you go
You're deep in my heart
To not have you by my side
makes tears flow down my cheek
But
to know you're studying and striving hard for your future
that's why i am here
trying to be strong, though i miss you alot
as long as your dreams become a reality
Baby
i know i have to start healing myself from the past
cause past is a past
what matters now is my current life with you
and not to forget the future
Guess i finally found the reason behind why i have to wait this time
It's because i have to be fully recovered
before i could actually be there
to make you happy