a chronology of thoughts.
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Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.
Monday, April 6, 2009, 9:42:00 PM
headeache! *sobs*
Since the time i hang around with abg Idz i suddenly feel something is not right. I felt something will happen on the 11 April. I seriously don't know why I am feeling this way.
At night, kakak was online and she told me that abang Faiq will come down but not her. I thought it was due to she have to work, but still i think she could make it as she clocks out at 3pm. But it wasn't how i thought it was. She told me everything that have happened and i felt so down about it. I guess that was what I've been feeling about. It does got to do with the birthday celebration on the 11 April.
What to do now? Ive been waiting for that day to come to have fun and hang around with my one big family. But with kakak not around, how can abang possibly be happy with the first birthday celebration he will experience?.. Everything seems to shatter.. Fir too won't be coming. Cause he is working..
Even Faz and Fir are having problems. Haish.. With abang and kakak together with Faz and Fir having problem, I'm thinking what is happening between me and B? My heart is shattering again thinking of all this. What is going on?..
Kakak not coming.. Fir not coming.. I doubt abang and Faz could enjoy the day..
B.. will you come?.. If you don't, I find it useless to have the celebration when everyone is not attending. Even the birthday boy, Syuk, don't have the mood to celebrate. What is happening?.. Why cant it happen?..
What should I do now? I cannot take it. Nothing seems to make me happy these days. Why?!..
:'(