a chronology of thoughts.
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Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009, 10:25:00 PM
baby! what is it that is lacking in me?
you said there's tons of fishes in the water
so the waters i would test
today, as expected i will meet my b and as expected today will be the last day we'll meet. I'm glad every of my doubts is cleared today but yet it was super hurt and idk why?
met him at burger king and abg and kakak was late for like 5 mins or so. At first normal topics we talked about then return his jacket. and yea kak came and abg and b settled about money stuffs. Then kak return the ring.
it was super painful. why? havent i been expecting this to happen? but yet.. why do i still cry like hell??
u said there's still lots of guys, go for them.
and i said if its as easy as u said, i would have one. but the fact is its hard.
and u said u've been lying. u just play along cause u dont want me to feel the hurt u felt by the guy before u.
im thinking. if u dont have the feelings for me, why must u even start knowing that u will still hurt me in the end?
yes u were being nice to me for avoiding me from getting hurt. but dear, why dont u think of the future?
what difference does it make when u said u cant cause u're unfaithful? seriously whatever ur reason were, that is a duplicate of what he said to me.
so what difference does it made? im asking u. what?!
i asked u, what is worng? what is lacking in me?
u sAId there's nothing wrong with u its just me
ITS THE SAME EXACT WORDS
why?!
what are kisses for?
haish.
things are over. i get what i want. THE TRUTH.
and yea u killed me
TRUTH HURTS WHILE LIE KILLS
never forget that.
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