a chronology of thoughts.
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Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.
Saturday, July 4, 2009, 10:43:00 PM
disappointment!
haish! today! woke up early to meet kak and z and supposedly him.
but yet something disappointing and like haish!
why o why he is like this?
He kept asking why he kept hurting his loved ones.
sometimes to stop hurting ur loved ones is actually to make them stop worrying about yourself.
people like kak, z and ur own adq. they are the ones who u depend on.
i know its easier said than done.
but yet every teens have their own problems.
mainly, family, school, social and sometimes relationship.
what else can be our problem?
be strong! that's the word i have for myself and my loved ones.
dont worry cause you have to remember that HE is always by our side. to guide us through but it's up to us to follow HIM or stray away from HIM.
i was woken up by a bad dream about b. B, can u please stop haunting me. I want to move. move far away from u! i want my life back! thank you so much for holding my hand giving me the hope that you'll guide me out of the darkness but yet u let it go when im blinded by you. how bad can u be? you made me fear. fear of guys.
Though i was disappointed just now, i dont want to show my sadness so i just keep smiling around for kak and z. i miss them too k! thanks alot kak n z for spending time with me.
then right. idk why i received alot of smiles! from chinese guys some more. hahas! then got a group of mat repians step jln kerek2 next to me and wan to kerek2. wan to look2. shoo larh! i wont layan! hmph!
anw thanks to those who smile at me! (:
ouh. i gt a bad news. this is for my loved ones.
found out the pain in my stomach is due to one of the veins is swollen.
that caused my late mense and the pains uhk. once its burst, it will be cancer cell.
im scared truely scared..
maybe what faz said is true. when i do work, im too rough wanting to do things fast and always hit on things hard at the same spot that makes it swollen.
that is one of the possibilities.
haish. im not asking much. just be by my side make me happy cause i seriously feeling very sacred. and i am super stressed with studies! but still! stay strong ayu!
(im saying this out cause i lazy want to repeat the same thing over and over again)
love love!
muahs!