a chronology of thoughts.
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Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.
Wednesday, July 1, 2009, 5:26:00 PM
I dont know where to go
I cant do it all alone
(I've tried)
And i dont know why
Fuih!
It feels as though like ive been running and hardly catch my breathe and finally now i am able to rest.
Today end school early but i didnt go to work. My teammates are doing the MEB project and i am super sorry! I should be there but i dont seem to get it and like so many things are running through my mind. plus i have to do revision.
Haish, my careperson had a talk with me just now regarding my school and work.
I know i have to give out equal time for work and study. But what else can be done?
My life is filled with only study and work. I hardly have time for family and my sisters, brothers, besties and friends.
Isnt that much sacrifices ive made? Plus i hardly rest too!
Come on larh who would want to torture themselves for no good reason.
If i had a choice, i would want to be like normal teenagers who just study and hang around and just chill one corner with friends.
Haish. i have no choice i know. But i will work hard for it! one more month! i know! haish!
Today, i met him( the guy who is in the same school as me now)
Omg! was shocked! cause i dont want to see you again!
Why? must i see you again?
I hate it cause im weak. When i saw someone from my past or something that remind me of them, all the memories i will reminice and it will make me break down. I'm not strong yet to reminice them with a strong heart.
Haish. i am down enough. I am troubled enough.
How much more u want me to suffocate?
When else can i breathe?
When else will the wound in my heart be cured instead of salt being added to the wound?
God! when will you be by my side again? i miss the presence of yourself who always calm me down whenever i am crying inside and whenever i am feeling panic.
I'm praying everything to be back on track. :'( :'( :'(