a chronology of thoughts.
welcome
Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010, 11:48:00 PM
ive said out what i have to say.
one explanation is enough.
either the next meeting gonna be a new start or a continuation of this disaster, then its up to u guys.
im too weak to fight.
i need energy to continue fighting what i've been fighting for.
so i have no strength to find more energy for another fight.
too much to explain, too much tt i've went through.
hate to explain as it will only make me shed more tears and what will people say?
AYU EMO.
say. say what u gotta say. cause i know what im doing and i know im getting weaker as each day passes by.
ive been wanting to start a new life, but as usual, a new life means new obstacles.
and im goign through them with patience cause i believe HE wont give me obstacles that i cant go through.
now im telling everybody that is involved,
both party are my lved ones.
both party hurt me, and i know i hurt u guys and girls too.
now im telling u guys, since u guys belong to the diff world, ur worlds will never collide again.
both parties will never meet each other again.
*unless "bumped into each other" i have no choice.
both parties hurt each other with ur words. and im hurt seeing both hurt.
fight? in the end? fall out?
what for?
both parties have touched each other with harsh words.
but if u ever not satisfied with anything, BLAME IT ON ME.
i dont want both parties to hurt each other anymore, if u really have to hurt someone, HURT ME THEN.
i am willing to do it.
its a normal thing for me already.
im sorry if ive hurt any of u.
im sorry if my words makes anybody upset.
im sorry but i gotta say im too hurt.
and i still love both parties deeply.
i need both parties.
i don ever wanna lose/ leave either one.
if u love me too, then feel me and stop this.
lastly, always remember, no matter what, AYU STILL LOVES U ALL.
thats all i gotta say.
fazlin syg, im here for u too.
pls dear pls be strong. i wanna be there for u just the same way u were there for me.
im asking u not to make rash desicion.
and pls if ur bf reads this, i want u to remeber what i said during baby;s last bdae party.
u're my guy's brother and i treated ur gf as my sister.
i dont wan to see either one walking without either one.
i love ur relationship as much as i love others and mine.
every relationship have their own set of problems, its the matter of how u handle it.
its an advise for all and for me as well.
chipette, i miss crying on ur shoulder!
i so need u right now.
idk where else to run, fazlin got a prob and my loved ones too.
i dont wan to be another set of burden for them.
cant they just understand how much i love them? *sobs sobs*
one explanation is enough.
either the next meeting gonna be a new start or a continuation of this disaster, then its up to u guys.
im too weak to fight.
i need energy to continue fighting what i've been fighting for.
so i have no strength to find more energy for another fight.
too much to explain, too much tt i've went through.
hate to explain as it will only make me shed more tears and what will people say?
AYU EMO.
say. say what u gotta say. cause i know what im doing and i know im getting weaker as each day passes by.
ive been wanting to start a new life, but as usual, a new life means new obstacles.
and im goign through them with patience cause i believe HE wont give me obstacles that i cant go through.
now im telling everybody that is involved,
both party are my lved ones.
both party hurt me, and i know i hurt u guys and girls too.
now im telling u guys, since u guys belong to the diff world, ur worlds will never collide again.
both parties will never meet each other again.
*unless "bumped into each other" i have no choice.
both parties hurt each other with ur words. and im hurt seeing both hurt.
fight? in the end? fall out?
what for?
both parties have touched each other with harsh words.
but if u ever not satisfied with anything, BLAME IT ON ME.
i dont want both parties to hurt each other anymore, if u really have to hurt someone, HURT ME THEN.
i am willing to do it.
its a normal thing for me already.
im sorry if ive hurt any of u.
im sorry if my words makes anybody upset.
im sorry but i gotta say im too hurt.
and i still love both parties deeply.
i need both parties.
i don ever wanna lose/ leave either one.
if u love me too, then feel me and stop this.
lastly, always remember, no matter what, AYU STILL LOVES U ALL.
thats all i gotta say.
fazlin syg, im here for u too.
pls dear pls be strong. i wanna be there for u just the same way u were there for me.
im asking u not to make rash desicion.
and pls if ur bf reads this, i want u to remeber what i said during baby;s last bdae party.
u're my guy's brother and i treated ur gf as my sister.
i dont wan to see either one walking without either one.
i love ur relationship as much as i love others and mine.
every relationship have their own set of problems, its the matter of how u handle it.
its an advise for all and for me as well.
chipette, i miss crying on ur shoulder!
i so need u right now.
idk where else to run, fazlin got a prob and my loved ones too.
i dont wan to be another set of burden for them.
cant they just understand how much i love them? *sobs sobs*