a chronology of thoughts.
welcome
Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010, 8:20:00 PM
i feel i lost myself again?
nowadays i tend to walk by some people but just keeping myself quiet.
i couldnt crack lame jokes with my bestie.
i couldnt enjoy school.
i couldnt look forward for work.
i couldnt make up my mind to eat or not.
i sleep early.
i listen to music frequently... to avoid communicating with others.
i put facades again.
i hate this.
cause when this happens, usually its a cue that all those laughters and fun will end soon.
and problems and sadness will come in.
haha! think negative again. >:(
i wanna study but i get so fed up when i cant get a simple step. then i started to give up.
went to tutorial. saw the step and i was like *ayu, u're getting fucking stupid* -.-
my school test are coming up and it will be next week.
so fast rightttt!
at the same time, i have my work test.
and that will be on 21 may.
i have to know both theory and practical. by that date.
and its not easy im telling u.
:(
most of the time im at school. going to lectures and tutorials. long days i still have only 1 hours break. how pathetic can that be?
the rest of my time is for work.
then when can i revise?!
spend time with my friends and baby?
aiyooooooooo...
my thighs are still badly hurt too. *sobs*
nowadays i tend to walk by some people but just keeping myself quiet.
i couldnt crack lame jokes with my bestie.
i couldnt enjoy school.
i couldnt look forward for work.
i couldnt make up my mind to eat or not.
i sleep early.
i listen to music frequently... to avoid communicating with others.
i put facades again.
i hate this.
cause when this happens, usually its a cue that all those laughters and fun will end soon.
and problems and sadness will come in.
haha! think negative again. >:(
i wanna study but i get so fed up when i cant get a simple step. then i started to give up.
went to tutorial. saw the step and i was like *ayu, u're getting fucking stupid* -.-
my school test are coming up and it will be next week.
so fast rightttt!
at the same time, i have my work test.
and that will be on 21 may.
i have to know both theory and practical. by that date.
and its not easy im telling u.
:(
most of the time im at school. going to lectures and tutorials. long days i still have only 1 hours break. how pathetic can that be?
the rest of my time is for work.
then when can i revise?!
spend time with my friends and baby?
aiyooooooooo...
my thighs are still badly hurt too. *sobs*
when one party doesnt feel insecurities, the other party will feel "he/she just simply didnt care"
but when one party felt insecure, the other party will get irritated. "u dont trust me is it?!"
so should one party feel insecured or secured?