the next day, it was mother's day celebration for my dearest mummy and cik saliah (: i was glad that although ayah leaked the secret, we still managed to have fun. the cake looks nice seii. but u know larh chocolate. when eat too much chocolate at one time, is so not nice. we celebrated until 11 plus? then headed to hougang then to serangoon then to yishun and back to punggol.

otw back to punggol mummy asked how baby and i met, what school is he in and etc etc. then mummy shared a story about a scientist couple. its super cool larh. but sadly in the end both died. but it was a unique story shared. i likeeee! anw, thanks for making the celebration happened. somehow i felt better after that day. ;D

monday came, nothing much happened. had lab and went to work. i was stationed at base and okayy larh. i learnt the holding time already. at around 830pm, i started to feel so lethargic. maybe cause my mind was slowly filled with lecture quizes.

and im telling u i hate my modules this sem except maths, operatin unit and french. so the modules that i hate is BIO, ENVIRONMENTAL TECHNOLOGY and OCCUPATIONAL SAFETY AND HEALTH. bio i hate it cause i cant memorise. as for ET and OSH, the tutors are super fucking lazy. they just wanna get their job done, whether or not the students understand them. in the end we wasted fucking 2 to 4 hours of lecture and study at home by ourselves. whats the use sia? whatever they said are words that are all printed in the notes! for goodness sake, we can read okayy! >:(

had my bio test just now. kayy i have to admit its easy, but like i said i just couldnt memorise. i really really pity myself.

next week : UO lecture test. EM lecture test. ET lecture test. IBM lecture test. French listening and writing test. KFC 1 star test. *fainting*

and im not kidding, im getting fatter. seriously seriously not kidding! :O

guys are so clever. come to me and talk or look at me when baby is not by my side and disappear when baby is there. idk why i really get so scared when random guys approach me or stare at me. :/

yesterday baby sent me home by taxi from yishun. thanks dear for the ride home(: this taxi driver gave us riddles. and not bad, he managed to make us laugh throughout the journey. :D

i shared with my besties what happened and how i treated baby on saturday. they gave me their piece of mind and the sentences that are still lingering in my mind are:

"even so u felt hurt, does that mean u gotta hurt him too? did u even spare a thought for him who wants to spend his time happily with u?"

"idk but somehow i feel that u're a little taking him for granted."

:/ am i? why ppl kept saying im taking him for granted? my limited time spent with him? my bad mood moments that could hurt him? i didnt make him happy? my lack of attention for him?

b, if really its true, will u forgive me? i dont want to see u hurt in any ways, i just want to see u smile and happy always. <3