a chronology of thoughts.
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Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.
Sunday, June 27, 2010, 6:17:00 PM
i know no matter what i say, u wont even bother.
i guess ive said what i need to say to u in the text. i understand babe how hurt u're feeling but honest i have no intention for anything like this to happen. no matter who u trust or what running through ur mind, its all up to u. i have said what i need to and thus i have no secrets or any lies anymore. u're someone who is there by me, i just cant believe how dumb i was to not find out earlier his true status. what is happening right now, is painful for me too. but i'd rather u hear the truth from me than in future u somehow found out about it by urself. and i cant keep anything from people who means alot to me. cause i cant lie to the people whom i love dearly although it means that truth will bring me to deep shit. im trying to be honest here, admiting my mistakes. cause i know thats me. he said, i only think about myself and not others. if this is truely what i want then why am i suffocating too? for now, the only thing i can do is to pray for the best. im so sorry for everything, i wish u well and take good care of urself there.
on the other hand, school is not giving me a relax life either. my results are in my hands.
ET: 44/100
OSH: 36/100 *yawns*
UO : 64/100
EM2 : 72/100 *grr*
FRENCH : i forgot but i pass
IBM : alah. forgot also but pass uhh
two weeks of "holidays" and now back to school. just started schooling and they dump us with more projects and to make things worse, i have 3 tests next week. fuck!
work: im really considering to go back to cbtl. i really hope there's vacancy *cross fingers* but i cant bare to leave my KFC family. *sobbing* idk. :/
i guess ive said what i need to say to u in the text. i understand babe how hurt u're feeling but honest i have no intention for anything like this to happen. no matter who u trust or what running through ur mind, its all up to u. i have said what i need to and thus i have no secrets or any lies anymore. u're someone who is there by me, i just cant believe how dumb i was to not find out earlier his true status. what is happening right now, is painful for me too. but i'd rather u hear the truth from me than in future u somehow found out about it by urself. and i cant keep anything from people who means alot to me. cause i cant lie to the people whom i love dearly although it means that truth will bring me to deep shit. im trying to be honest here, admiting my mistakes. cause i know thats me. he said, i only think about myself and not others. if this is truely what i want then why am i suffocating too? for now, the only thing i can do is to pray for the best. im so sorry for everything, i wish u well and take good care of urself there.
on the other hand, school is not giving me a relax life either. my results are in my hands.
ET: 44/100
OSH: 36/100 *yawns*
UO : 64/100
EM2 : 72/100 *grr*
FRENCH : i forgot but i pass
IBM : alah. forgot also but pass uhh
two weeks of "holidays" and now back to school. just started schooling and they dump us with more projects and to make things worse, i have 3 tests next week. fuck!
work: im really considering to go back to cbtl. i really hope there's vacancy *cross fingers* but i cant bare to leave my KFC family. *sobbing* idk. :/