a chronology of thoughts.
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Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010, 7:32:00 PM
yay! finally get to meet irry. heee. babe, remember dont say chipette anymore. heee. as usual, we wanted to do our project/assignment. but in the end we super malas. :/ babe, i really hope u manage to finish ur assignmet. we kept looking at the time. cause iwann and baby will come down to fetch us. heeee. i was like jumping of excitement in my heart although i've been meeting him everyday that week. and as i thought so, baby slept. nevermind. as long as he came and we get to smile to each other. ;D babe, we'll meet next holiday. :(
then yesterday, went out with saiful, syed, fir and atiqah. went to watch movies, play bowling. we wanted to celebrate saiful's birthday. it may be a small thing, but i really hope everybody enjoyed. i did. alot! heh. marmaduke was a disappointment! then we played 2 games of bowling.first round, fir won. second round, i was about to take the champion wehn saiful suddenly strike! >:( angry or whattt. tkpe close one eye uhhh. haha. then they were practicing their curls while syed wasnt in the mood cause he was tired and atiqah kept gutter-ing. hahah atiqah GUTTER kassim. that's her middle name. and she have been wanting to bowl with baby. insyaallah one day alright(:
we have been laughing and have sweet days for a long run, and this month, it was so unexpected for us to cry alot. it was unexpected that during our 8 monthsary, u broke my trust. but i guess im to blame too. :( in every relationship, every problem faced or every mistakes made are both party's fault. it will never be, "im right, u're wrong" thats what syuk kept telling me.that night, i thought. what is relationship without trust? then i thought again. why should i end this? i had sleepless night. in the morning im still crying. idk what to do. whenever u have the thought of breaking up, always ask urself. can u live without him? fazlin asks me that. i know i cant. i dont dare to take the risk of feeling emptiness without u in my life. ur tears, moved my heart that u're sincere when u apologised. but dear, its really super duper hard for me to trust again. and for u to know, i really hate to be in a relationship without any trust. i dont want to make myself to trust u. what i want is, for u to gain back all by your own effort. cause i need that to prove to me, that u really love me, and all ur promises and words are true. i need that dear. i need that to feel alive and be like who i was before.
nobody have loved me the way u did. nobody have ever made me feel, im worth it. u did. and i wanna keep it that way. i never wanna let u go either. like i said, when we made mistakes it doesnt mean that its the end. when we learn from it, thats a cue telling us to start a new chapter. i love u dear.
nobody have loved me the way u did. nobody have ever made me feel, im worth it. u did. and i wanna keep it that way. i never wanna let u go either. like i said, when we made mistakes it doesnt mean that its the end. when we learn from it, thats a cue telling us to start a new chapter. i love u dear.i hope both of u coukd solve it in a clear mind, no matter how much u guys say u dont understand each other, trust me. u guys understand each other, better than anyone else. aizan and i are here. just beep us. :)