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Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010, 11:58:00 PM
im in a dangerous state.
baby didnt understand that initially. but when i explained, then he said isnt it a good news? yes dear it is. it truely is. but like i said everybody have their own fear. i have that biggest fear that i dont dare to face again. as the cause of it is not only guys; family & friends too. i have my own mistakes i have my own weaknesses. sometimes i personally said sorry, sometimes through blog sometimes i just cant say sorry. im really afraid to face people. afraid that i might hurt them. and i really hate to be the middle person cause thats when im the one who feels the most hurt.
i wann back my life. i feel so wtf? can i have my freedom already? cause if i dont ask for permission there u go, saying that im hurting u again. (*baby its not u :D) im sick and tired of sch and work. where's my chilling time? where's my enjoying? where's my non -schedule day? sch is pressing too much. and i had to squeeze sometime for work. and i cant forget baby. i dont want him to wait too long for my free day. and when i get too tired and stressed up thats when i'll have quarells with my family. i hardly spend time with friends too. i miss alot, many, too many people. :(
whenever i feel lost my besties will hear me out, baby will hugg me tight. kayy basically, i miss having a proper family bonding time. i mean i myself ran away from my family, avoiding any chances cause it makes me feel like im the only child. how can i lead myself back to the family? idk. i seriously dk. :(
ouh damn! i didnt intend to have an emo post. haha. nthg happy to update pon. the only happy thing i just love u alot syg. (: