a chronology of thoughts.
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Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.
Thursday, October 28, 2010, 10:20:00 PM
its really hard to support oneself. kids grow up to be an adult. kids have to learn to be independent from their own family. financially, emotionally & physically.
i have to admit im struggling deep down in the sea. im the kind who really tries my best not to hurt anyone who are close/ whom i loved alot. im the kind who think of others before me. but in the end, these ppl think that im rude, self-centred, nvr tries to understand them or care about their problems & feelings. so in the end i feel the painful wounds. but i keep them to myself. i dont speak up to them cause im super uncomfortable in sharing my problem with them.
so in the end i throw everything out to my friends & boyfriend. cause i am comfortable sharing my true feelings to them. in the end it became a complain from my mouth to their ears. yes i know they care thats why they still hear me out. but they are as mad as i am as i encounter everything repeatedly.
& i feel that i burden all of them alot.
my bf, he have been going through it all with me. he went extra miles to help me feel better & solve any problems that i encounter. im really thankful that i have him as my bf. cause non of my exs did sacrifice as much as he did. thanks baby. no words can describe how much i appreciated him.
i wish for all this to end soon, but it seems like it'll never end.