a chronology of thoughts.
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Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.
Monday, November 8, 2010, 8:14:00 PM
i pity myself. my ulcer is not getting better but bigger & im having a bad headache now. idk why. i thought because of ive nt had my dinner but once i reached home & eat, it became worst. :ulcer cure fast fast larh pls. i wanna take more pictures with baby. the picture above is the only picture i took with him this month. both of us super pucat i know. just end work so expect that. hehh.
haish. i know sometimes i would share my sadness/disappointment/ anger about baby in fb or in blog. but im really trying to avoid that. i don wann our fight to be all over the net. recently baby post "im a bad bf..." in fb. i dont like. i mean ppl who cares asked me whats wrong & stuff. i just don wann them to think baby is a big bully who made me cry hard that night. & i dont wann ppl to buy the "im a bad bf" thingy just because of some shits. alah. isnt it normal? i made baby cry too. & of course i gt my blablabla by faz for hurting baby. hehh. okay suddenly i forget what i wanna post.
but pls ehh syg. as far as i can take it, i never wann to talk bad abt u thru net. any hurts that i feel i only tell faz, atiqah,, fazlin & irry. so PLEASE DONT TALK BAD THINGS ABT URSELF. like ive said, u've been taking a very gd care of me. & i appreciate it much. thank you. *bowss*
the night before i fight w baby i had this nightmare
baby: think about ur attitude okayy. keeping things to urself how am i suppose to understand the situation u're in?
me: ouh so now u cant stand me anymore uhh? i burden u so much kn & u never wann admit. ur body language show it all okayy. enough is enough uhh i wann to be alone. i wann to ask for time out.
baby: ape time out time out? puas hati break kan!
me: see u have been wanting that kn? gd larh break uhh break uhh. bagos! *walks away*
baby: *grabs my hand* ehh jgn nak mepek uhh. u know i dont mean it kn. ehh fuck! stress sia aku. b pls larh we can go thru this together.
me: u've said it. theres no way u can take back ur words. *walks away*
goshhhhh! it felt so real. then i cnnt sleep anymore. :'( baby called but i couldnt tell cause it can make me cry while sharing. so baby this was the nightmare i had. T.T
i love u syg. (: