a chronology of thoughts.
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Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.
Saturday, January 15, 2011, 1:16:00 AM
hmm an update about my life. as usual been busy with sch & work. but i hardly meet my baby. we are so caught up with our sch assignments & stuffs. now we have to prepare ourselves for coming exams. sighsss.im really super scared.lately i have been skipping lectures. partly cause im lazy, mainly cause i felt so weak. really super weak. mentally & physically. i still cant get over what had happned between us. to the extend that im smoking. yes im back to smoking. but im really trying my very best to avoid it again.
due to that baby said im not the Ayu that he knows. i guess its true? cause what ppl have been observing is the Ayu who always hold herself together. they have never seen me crying every day & night & really lost control of myself. im sorry but thats who i am right now. someone who is strong enough to lead me back? i really need that help.
i wanna do my pracs. but dad broke his promise again? when i asked him for the money he said he promised to only pay for TP. was there a miscommunication again? idk. i really dk who i can trust. i really dk how to trust baby again. i really dk if i could trust dad's promises again. =(
"because of u, i find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me. because of u i am afraid"