a chronology of thoughts.
welcome
Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.
Sunday, January 2, 2011, 9:08:00 PM
a new year huh? well 2010. sch was sucky of course. family stays the same. work is getting bored. friendships seems to be broken. relationship faced ups & downs.ive cried alot since baby's birthday. & i really cant stop crying. i dont share with anyone cause i guess its just abt me losing control of myself? i could barely smile & laugh. once baby sat next to me & look deep into my eyes. i wasnt crying or anything but baby just asked " b, why are u feeling so sad?"
i was touched by it & tears fell. the tears that ive been holding back throughout the moment i went out with him. i told him everything that i felt. & im really upset with those SBP pictures.
haish. this year, i really wanna have a changed life? i wann to laugh & smile & feel good about myself more. i cant stand to keep getting hurt by people. people who dont appreciate my concern, people who thinks im worthless in their life. im sorry if im really worthless, its okayy i'll walk away from your life & stick with my loved ones.
im really trying to be happy. i wann to be happy w my friends, baby, & i hope family too. insyaallah.