a chronology of thoughts.
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Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.
Sunday, May 3, 2009, 1:36:00 PM
speechless
what a life i'm having now. when one aspect of my life is doing fine, every aspects follow suits. But when one went haywire, everything goes haywire too.
I'm still half sick. But like i said, i have to be strong to get things going. Due to im sick, i am not able to do many things. As in, i have no appetite to eat, every food that i ate are just tasteless. I have no mood to study what more to work?
At home, something bad happened yesterday and this morning. Yesterday i was rude to abg idz ended up i get a tight slap from him. i'm sorry. i know i was wrong. i've told you before, sometimes i myself don't understand me. To tell you the truth, i am beginning to hate myself. i am beginning to not understand myself cause i feel that i dont know the ayu in me. after giving me a tight slap, you messaged me saying that if i wana hate u, just hate you. how can that be?
you know how much i love u bro. It's my fault and who the hell am i to hate you? Then, this morning, i heard my oarents quarelling. i'm not sure about what but i heard about my school all that stuff uhk. haish i dont know larh.
Apart from that, i cant stop thinking of him, who i've hurt deeply. I mean my gals have told me he is no longer the guy i used to think he is. I know i have to let the thought go. he is so bad. It was really super hard to get over him and now he is back and gave me the cold shoulder. Now, i have to get over u again. It won't be as hard. Trust me. I'm stronger now! As for b, i still cant believe how stupid i am to trust your words. why the hell i still keep your picture in my wallet? You dont deserve my love. you dont desrved to be missed. Go, go far away from me. Search for your happiness, just don't continue hurting them and saying words that didnt come from the bottom of your heart. Dont say sweet words to girls or should i say, stop saying thoese words which have been a cliche for most girls like, trust me. i wont break my promise. Do you know how hard it was for me to actually trust your words? in the end, fine your words are just words. No meaning behind it. *speechless*
As for my studies, i've done my lab report but i have 5 tutorials to finish off. I will uhk. Soon. I have to reread my MEB to make myself understand. I cant rely on others as they can have the time for me, but i don't have the time. I mean during my free time will normally be my working time. Haish. supposedly i will be working in 3 hours now. I can bet you my salary for this month will be lesser than expected. great! i'll have another headache to settle my needs. =.="
Yesterday worked at coffeebean. Time really flies. there was an attached manager and he was super fun larh. Even when we do our closing, we didnt know that an hour have past. great huh. Then had a great laugh with Iryanna and listened to rashid's problem. No worries rashid, I'm still here :)
Guess that's all for today.. toodles!