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Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
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Friday, August 28, 2009, 9:29:00 AM
he came back and now he is gone again
Hey..
Yesterday was a i-have-no-comments day
My thinking was after endoscopy, i would be going home straight as the doctor told me, on that day, u need an adult to accompany u cause u will be feeling so weak.
So yea, reached the endoscopy centre at 2 pm and then i was "admitted" for a while. throughout, ive been thinking, how will it be and all. I was msging abg faiq then i suddenly received a call. *should i pick it up should i not?* It's him who called me. ididnt answer the call. without saying hi, he said
"If you're busy in the class or busy studying for your exams, then dont force yourself to answer my call"
He made me laugh... Boy, i love your confidence but sometimes u just have to find out some things before saying it out. haha!
I told him i was in the hospital..
"when were u admitted? why didnt u inform me? "...... " ouh endoscopy. Still why didnt inform me you're going for it, im free today u know.. i can accompany u."
Are u thinking of making me cry again? Why should i inform u, u dont care about me anymore. U left me.. alone here.. crying, waiting for u to return..
Then i had to go to the room and i listen to my dad, i offed my handphone..
It was a nice "sleeping beauty" sleep.
I will never wake up i tell u, but my mum wake me up. :(
I told my dad, ayah buy me that dose. I want to use it every night. =DD
On my handphone, i received alot of messages. was shocked cause im expecting abg's msg only.
I received msgs from him, a calleralert informing that he cant get through me... :'( i dont want to see u unless it's the guy whom i love have returned.
Feeling so weak, very weak, i called him. he asked me whether i want to break fast together or not. *shockingly* i agreed. Rushed home, get dressed and i reached my workplace right on time.
We had our dinner, we went to iluma, laughing here and there, distruning each other.. Time flies and i was still feeling weak so went headed home..
My heart told me, he'll be gone again. Thank you so muchh! for making my wait a bliss. for making my night. Ive been waiting for u to return, u had. the guy that i love! He had returned! I wass with him last night! But sadly, he's gone the time we split our ways. I cried, i cried for u.. the tears that i never regret flowing it for..
and imy again. but i have to move forward right? LEt's leave eveything to fate again. If we're fated to meet, we will one day. If not, i wish u all the best for what u have planned to do.
As for me, if its fated for my heart to change, it will. If it doesnt, im just praying that it wont be a suffering one. <3
Reached home, and again family fought again. ouh god! im so sick of all this.. after one another seii..
Again, the only thing i can do is to only go through all this with a strong heart.
Dear God,
I am still feeling liveless. I am still speechless. I am lost and idk what to do. Please guide me through this path of life that im facing cause i miss your presence. Never leave me alone cause you're the that i need the most.
Yesterday was a i-have-no-comments day
My thinking was after endoscopy, i would be going home straight as the doctor told me, on that day, u need an adult to accompany u cause u will be feeling so weak.
So yea, reached the endoscopy centre at 2 pm and then i was "admitted" for a while. throughout, ive been thinking, how will it be and all. I was msging abg faiq then i suddenly received a call. *should i pick it up should i not?* It's him who called me. i
"If you're busy in the class or busy studying for your exams, then dont force yourself to answer my call"
He made me laugh... Boy, i love your confidence but sometimes u just have to find out some things before saying it out. haha!
I told him i was in the hospital..
"when were u admitted? why didnt u inform me? "...... " ouh endoscopy. Still why didnt inform me you're going for it, im free today u know.. i can accompany u."
Are u thinking of making me cry again? Why should i inform u, u dont care about me anymore. U left me.. alone here.. crying, waiting for u to return..
Then i had to go to the room and i listen to my dad, i offed my handphone..
It was a nice "sleeping beauty" sleep.
I will never wake up i tell u, but my mum wake me up. :(
I told my dad, ayah buy me that dose. I want to use it every night. =DD
On my handphone, i received alot of messages. was shocked cause im expecting abg's msg only.
I received msgs from him, a calleralert informing that he cant get through me... :'( i dont want to see u unless it's the guy whom i love have returned.
Feeling so weak, very weak, i called him. he asked me whether i want to break fast together or not. *shockingly* i agreed. Rushed home, get dressed and i reached my workplace right on time.
We had our dinner, we went to iluma, laughing here and there, distruning each other.. Time flies and i was still feeling weak so went headed home..
My heart told me, he'll be gone again. Thank you so muchh! for making my wait a bliss. for making my night. Ive been waiting for u to return, u had. the guy that i love! He had returned! I wass with him last night! But sadly, he's gone the time we split our ways. I cried, i cried for u.. the tears that i never regret flowing it for..
and imy again. but i have to move forward right? LEt's leave eveything to fate again. If we're fated to meet, we will one day. If not, i wish u all the best for what u have planned to do.
As for me, if its fated for my heart to change, it will. If it doesnt, im just praying that it wont be a suffering one. <3
Reached home, and again family fought again. ouh god! im so sick of all this.. after one another seii..
Again, the only thing i can do is to only go through all this with a strong heart.
Dear God,
I am still feeling liveless. I am still speechless. I am lost and idk what to do. Please guide me through this path of life that im facing cause i miss your presence. Never leave me alone cause you're the that i need the most.
*ayu stay strong!*
He came back and now he's gone again...