a chronology of thoughts.
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Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.
Monday, August 24, 2009, 8:02:00 PM
What you see's not what you get
With you there's just no measurement
No way to tell what's real from what isn't there
Your eyes they sparkle
That's all changed into lies that drop like acid rain
You washed away the best of me
You don't care
You know you did it
I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You're wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone
Sometimes shattered
Never openNothing matters
When you're broken
That was me whenever
I was with you
Always ending
Always over
Back and forth, up and down like a rollercoaster
I am breaking
That habitToday
There is nothing you can say
Sorry doesn't cut it, babe
Take the hint and walk away'
Cause I'm gone
Doesn't matter what you do
It's what you did that's hurting you
All I needed was the truth
Now I'm gone
What you see's not what you get
What you see's not what you get
Shattered.Heartbroken. Shocked.Speechless.
But! no matter what i feel, it will never gonna make me want to stay anymore.
Enough is enough.
If u feel you're being revengeful, then i feel i dont deserve it.
If u feel i am worse than a slut, then guess what? you're nothing better than any of my ex. not even better than that jerk!
If u're thinking that i lied to you when i said i will never hate you cause love is the only feeling i could feel for you.
u know what? im still not lying. I may sound hateful towards you now. but just so u know, i love the guy who i love.
That guy have long gone. I could finally slowly accept that fact. It hurts, im still crying.
But i rather crying for him than crying for u!
He's gone for good, how i manage to accept it, i take it as he left me alone in this world.
Suddenly i'm talking to a guy who sound like you, who look like you however u dont have the heart, the pure heart that he have.
He praise me while you criticize me.
He make me laugh and smile and feel loved and make me realise im not as bad as how i judge myself.
But u, make me laugh with hurt in my heart. u make me cry u make me mad. and u also crush me down.
But guess what?
no matter how much u've tried to crush me down, i will always remember his words and my friends are by my side helping me to stand up again.
My syg is gone forever but u will stay here until its time for u to be gone.
its so hard to accept that fact.
Though he is far away from me, he is close in my heart.
The hurt that im feeling is he is no longer by my side.
and i really do miss him alot.
As for u, although u're near, yet im trying my best to stay as far as i could away from u.
Cause the hurt that i feel, i shouldnt be going through it. cause i know, it's ur ex who made the mess and not me.
This is such a disappointment and total disappointment!
Dear, why must is it be so fast for u to be gone?
Leaving me alone with this clone of urs, suffering ...
u left me.. a few days after the night, before i go to sleep, when u said, "i love u".