went home fast to meet him (:
i find him getting cuter now. i have to admit, i melt for innocent-but-cute (ugly but adorable) guys. irony irony irony. if ppl say i go for looks, ouh well.. i go for UGLY but adorable.. how can u explain that? hot/ charming... nahhh.. i will get excited but for a few secs only... tskkk
ok ok.. then yea said toodles to him at 1135pm? so sadd!
the next next day, i've lost my mood. cried the whole day. due to what he confessed again. why oh why no matter what he said, i still like stay strong and act as though nothing happened the next day? why cant i be like other typical girls whereby i could just "u know wad, if u still wanna hurt me then fuck off" thanks zul and chipmunk for the advises. then after that, family quarel again. haiyo! felt so urghhh! went out at 630pm and went to ehub to just chill myself.. then.. i met him again...
i just cant say no..
then today, i had "fun" at work, well.. i managed to laugh at least instead of putting a frown. managed to put a facade front again.. then at work, alot of quarell with cheater customer. ishhh nak air free jerr! then laugh alot with mummy and when my fav mam came by, things just get more kecohism.. maybe tonight i'll meeting her fater she close outlet. i intended to quit, but my manager made terms with me, so fine i guess, i'll just have to stay.
and u know wad? only mummy and cik faridah fasting today! the rest all.. ehem ehem.. then finally i get to eat my honey biscuit!! muahs muahs! love it loads. hee! xp
this movie.. the conversations are exactly the same. the hurting words, the intention, the lies the happiness.. all are the same.. but yet the ending isnt the next episode in my life. idk how to explain but he really did affect my life! why cant i just move on when i know i am being him now.. ? to force urself to not love someone u love is hurting. to loe someone who hurts u is hurting. wanna know how im feeling? read irry's qoute of love in one of her post.
happiness.. why cant we go through happiness? why must u always bring up the past between my ex and i? like seriously no link seii.
i've told u once, it seems that i really have to make a choice. losing u? losing my ex? or losing both? i dont wan to end up losign both cause one is guiding me while the other is the one who steals my heart away from my ex. why ouh why can u never be convinced? kept saying im lying. tears and sacrifices never prove u anything? u even kept telling me that im hating u. why do u wan me to hate u so much?
*loving and missing u*