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Monday, September 21, 2009, 9:50:00 PM
harlu!!
last friday, met Syuk and "break" fast with him at CBTL( im like seriously getting sick of it) hahas! yea i wasn't fasting so i just accompany him and we had a cool chill talk.. long time never meet him! i miss him alot cn?
Then he made ma experince a new experience. he brought me to a place where i never thought it would be in singapore soo near my school! we lay down to gaze at the stars, mini fireworks at the corner of the scenery.. dipping our legs into the water while listening and singing throughout. i felt so peaceful! of course i could still feel the heartpain, the hurt of love but he managed to make me smile. ouh well, my besties never fail to make me smile when im down. thanks alot! it was a new memory build, another memory cherished.
Then we headed to his friends area and yea hang around for a while then i went home.. felt sick and weak and not in the mood to socialise that's why syuk just allow me to go home
throughout the night, i was talking to him, msging him.. i smiled knowing his smiling. im speechless knowing how he is now..
The next day, worked with mummy and syuk. Mummy's "dream" finally came true.. she's waiting to work with iwan and irry. soooo looking forward for it. -.- syuk and i felt so tired cause we totally have nothing to do. like, can say it's close to no customer. then we want to do closing, mummy stop us in the end we didnt do much closing. then Syuk made mini pizzas. And yea Congrats syuk for finishing off the last day of fasting month with u fasting. (:
After work headed Tamp to meet Naz, Abg azri and Cedric.. Well, as usual i didnt hang around much just didnt have the right feeling.. ouh well.. *indifference*
again talked to him otp till late night.
the next day came and its hari raya!
k wasnt really looking forward for it but ouh well, im like a couple with either of my bro..
My first bro wore a white suit and me white kebaye riding on a mhite motor?
Then my second bro and i since like 9 yrs ago we kena as couple so yea.. my 8 yrs darrrrlllinnng, im waiting to be ur fiancee.. chey chey! xP
idk why we have cut down the no of houses visited and i didnt realise alot is happening to my family. somehow, i feel we are all crying this year instead of laughters..
so yea reached home at around 10 plus then i slept. idk how i could hear my ringtone though i was tired at around 11 plus when brian and baby Q msged me, i tk dgr.. :s
So yea. otp with him till 3 am...
i miss him alot.. every night i thought he wouldnt call me but he did.. every night im feeling so weak cause im sick and tired but yet when he called, i could never reject and just continue talking as though im fine. tonight will he call? idk...
Seeing my grandmothers leading a lonely life each, i wonder how strong can they be to overcome those loneliness cause by me losing him have made ma lost my direction, i just cant imagine .... how strong can they be.. i totally envy them..
thanks to everyone who have sent me raye msgs, my hp beeped since 8pm on sat night till last night. im sry i didnt reply, i just dk how to. i mean even f i do, it wont be from the bottom of my heart so yea.. bt i really do appreciate it all. and rezman, i hope u're doing well with ur life.. was shcoked to receive ur msg bt yea cant ferget how much u used to care. (:
so yea... i gtg now... toodles! xoxo
last friday, met Syuk and "break" fast with him at CBTL( im like seriously getting sick of it) hahas! yea i wasn't fasting so i just accompany him and we had a cool chill talk.. long time never meet him! i miss him alot cn?
Then he made ma experince a new experience. he brought me to a place where i never thought it would be in singapore soo near my school! we lay down to gaze at the stars, mini fireworks at the corner of the scenery.. dipping our legs into the water while listening and singing throughout. i felt so peaceful! of course i could still feel the heartpain, the hurt of love but he managed to make me smile. ouh well, my besties never fail to make me smile when im down. thanks alot! it was a new memory build, another memory cherished.
Then we headed to his friends area and yea hang around for a while then i went home.. felt sick and weak and not in the mood to socialise that's why syuk just allow me to go home
throughout the night, i was talking to him, msging him.. i smiled knowing his smiling. im speechless knowing how he is now..
The next day, worked with mummy and syuk. Mummy's "dream" finally came true.. she's waiting to work with iwan and irry. soooo looking forward for it. -.- syuk and i felt so tired cause we totally have nothing to do. like, can say it's close to no customer. then we want to do closing, mummy stop us in the end we didnt do much closing. then Syuk made mini pizzas. And yea Congrats syuk for finishing off the last day of fasting month with u fasting. (:
After work headed Tamp to meet Naz, Abg azri and Cedric.. Well, as usual i didnt hang around much just didnt have the right feeling.. ouh well.. *indifference*
again talked to him otp till late night.
the next day came and its hari raya!
k wasnt really looking forward for it but ouh well, im like a couple with either of my bro..
My first bro wore a white suit and me white kebaye riding on a mhite motor?
Then my second bro and i since like 9 yrs ago we kena as couple so yea.. my 8 yrs darrrrlllinnng, im waiting to be ur fiancee.. chey chey! xP
idk why we have cut down the no of houses visited and i didnt realise alot is happening to my family. somehow, i feel we are all crying this year instead of laughters..
so yea reached home at around 10 plus then i slept. idk how i could hear my ringtone though i was tired at around 11 plus when brian and baby Q msged me, i tk dgr.. :s
So yea. otp with him till 3 am...
i miss him alot.. every night i thought he wouldnt call me but he did.. every night im feeling so weak cause im sick and tired but yet when he called, i could never reject and just continue talking as though im fine. tonight will he call? idk...
Seeing my grandmothers leading a lonely life each, i wonder how strong can they be to overcome those loneliness cause by me losing him have made ma lost my direction, i just cant imagine .... how strong can they be.. i totally envy them..
thanks to everyone who have sent me raye msgs, my hp beeped since 8pm on sat night till last night. im sry i didnt reply, i just dk how to. i mean even f i do, it wont be from the bottom of my heart so yea.. bt i really do appreciate it all. and rezman, i hope u're doing well with ur life.. was shcoked to receive ur msg bt yea cant ferget how much u used to care. (:
so yea... i gtg now... toodles! xoxo
miss him alot.. :'(