a chronology of thoughts.
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Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.
Friday, October 30, 2009, 2:57:00 PM
today's lab! so the damn slack uhh. too slack that i cant even use my brain to think of our basics concepts. in my mind i was like thinking, if only i could be at home sleeping and then at 3pm like that go out heading to cbtl. gerek knnnnnnnn!!! -.- dream on ayu! da baik tuhh start school at 12pm and end at 3pm.
next week
mon: school till 6pm
tues: school till 5pm
wed: school till 3pm then work till 9pm
thurs: school till 4pm then got blaja at home
fri: NO SCHOOL! but working full shift, morning klc night cbtl
sat: UNDERWATER WORLD! ouh yea the day that i have been waiting for, since like weeks ago? O.o
sun: work morning then most prob girls day out eyy!
well, most of it is fixed uhh but for my working schedule 90% its gonna be as scheduled.
so the busy, as usual can only meet baby once that week. gosh! very the testing my patience seii.
well, most probably i'll be recaping my work on mon, tues, and thurs.
study, work, spend time with loved ones, is totally hard to juggle. cause im still bad at time management. tsktsktsk.
family, i just let them go for a while, and now im feeling guilty. but what can i do? ayah talked to me, i understand his feelings. i felt, ibu is too pampered. but when i discussed with b faz and b Q, they suddenly made me understand ibu's feelings and i felt ayah is thinking too much of his part as a man and not putting himself in her shoes as a woman. then how? i have to think of something that will senangkn hati both ayah and ibu and that is to do the housework. i'll try my best horr. if thats the best solution, then i shall try. housework isnt the main problem act, too many problems are made complicated and past mistakes are brought back to present.
and this makes me think, will this happen between my future hubby( klu kahwin uhh) and me?
syuk asked me a question
" a new year coming soon, this year was shitty right? so looking forward for a new life?"
i was speechless then. cause in my mind, last 2 years thats what i told him, i hate this 2007! sucks seii! i'll make sure my 2008 will be better!
and last year, hectic seii my 2008! im looking forward for 2009 to start a new life.
and now, this year im gonna say, my 2007 was shit, 2008 was shitter, 2009, worse shit. so i assume 2010 to be shitter than worse shit.
its not due to im being pessimistic but i just realised as years goes by, more and more obstacles come by and its tougher than the year before.
all this years, was totally testing my petience and how much i trust in Him.
after what have happened this year, my family, school, work and him, i realised, its all about time. patience is the key and strong will is the back up.
idk what is coming my way next year, but i hope i am still strong to go through it.
ive end school but still in school though sending all his pictures back.
thanks alot for letting me go, cause after then how much i realise someone else who could appreciate me much much better than u could.
*2 days counting down!* xD