i look super fat, but yet i like. hee! iwann dont anyhow laugh ehh.. according to B Q, it wasnt the right angle for me, therefore i look fat. :s. im really getting chubbier.. sobs sobs

"I wanna believe in everything that you say 'Cause it sounds so good. Sometimes I run, hide and i'm scared of u. But all I really want is to hold you tight Treat you right Be with you day and night Baby all I need is time" ~sometimes, britney spears

baby, i seriously dk how to describe what i am feeling. Ive been like searching for the right song to help me with the confessions in my heart but i failed. so, i'll try my very best to describe whats inside. and i hope u understand.

everytime when i see u, i feel so secure, that spot, with ur arms around me. whenever its time for us to be apart, i will always say to u, b, da mlm. for u to know, whenever i said that, though u havent hugg me goodbye, my heart misses u already. i feel ridiculous, as to how fast i could fall for u. started as a crush, dk how can i get myself involved in ur lovegame and then here i am, with u in my heart. meeting u once per week is killing me. in ur mind u might think the reason why i felt so was because imy. never deny, i mean that goes without saying right? but what is truely killing me is whenever u're far from me, i feel insecure and i hate that feeling! cause my past "traumas" is haunting me, and i truely truely hate that! it makes ur words unbelievable, it makes me feel denial. and of course what happened to me next? hugging myself tight, crying by myself.

for u to know, every night before i sleep, i've been praying. i dont want to hurt u the way my past have hurt me. i dont want u to feel insecure the way i've always been feeling in all my relationships. and i just want to heal fast! quick! so that we will build a new life, filled with happiness. but i cant run away from the fact that all this takes time. soemtimes when u hugg me, i just feel like crying. crying cause im thankful that i have u now and crying cause i wonder why u enter into my life after im so much hurt.

i may say that u're typical. chipmunk knows how much i hated typical guys. and im so sorry for saying that. but do u know something? how much i hated typical guys, among all, u're the one who managed to make me feel this way. typical guys wouldnt know how to make me smile till i go to sleep. though sometimes i may looked irritated with u kept making me blush, but deep inside i love it. hee! though u're not with me, i can blushed all by myself cause suddenly the picture of u staring at me at LJS flashed through my mind. :$ and as far as i remember, u're the first guy who managed to make me blush so much til i cry! every human is unique. and u know what baby? that makes u unique in my life. it may not be a big thing but that slightest thing is the most memorable. im looking forward for the day when i'll be officially urs and i miss u lots dear. never to forget, ayu sayang banget sama kamu. <3

and and and i love this pic too. but unfortunately it was b's bad hair day. =P