a chronology of thoughts.
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Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.
Thursday, December 31, 2009, 12:55:00 PM
school.. just reopen for 4 days and nobody would know how stress i am right now..
it feels like as though sem exam is in 2 weeks time.
a lil bit too much i know.
but i just cant sit still.
ader2 jerr is on my mind.
*cds project.. i better get it done by wed. (mon to wed straight i'm meeting syuk) :o thanks syuk!
* Oc project is postponed! :D to 15 jan.
*CSAS project everything, the final set have to be handed in by next thurs. :s
*TD im still stuck and im still like.."wth is going on?" i hate that.
*PIPC and OC idk whats wrong with electure.. i wanna study pleeeeaaassee!
*applied mathematics.. im still so sad over my results. :'(
* OC test, i studied that like a mad shit (hahaha! nga imagine a shit getting mad burok seii!) but in the end, i failed by 4 marks.
*Quizes coming up. AFTER NEW YEAR *have a good rest huh?* urggghhh!
* i just realised that TD have practical test. and as usual i started to say. shiiitt!
other than school...
* on th 19th jan.. im afraid.. i dont want it to come but what can i do? i have to..
*will not be working at cbtl for 2 weeks. due to school. for sure my salary so low.. how to cover up my ezlink payment? ..
*baby is starting to work too. alhamdullilah. at least he have more income, so that he wont be financially tight too and he wont be bored while waiting for me to reach home..
but this means lesser time for us. gain something, lose something. i know. but our schedule are opposing each other. maybe during times when he's working, i could study. again, lose something, gain something. aiyoyoyo. im so gonna miss baby alot. expecially when we have less time to spend and now we have lesser than less time to spend.
and term two is not long people! Its damn fast adding on TP have alot of tests..
all of these, add them up = i wanna shout then i wanna cry.
im too weak to even act strong.
people have been asking me
"ayu, u okayy? why are u so sad?"
and i'll be answering them
" ouh.. nothing. im not sad chill. :) its just that alot of things rae runnign through my mind"
thanks people for ur concern. but i know u know those words are for u not to be worried about me. cant believe that my facade didnt work again. guess this time im really too weak to even act strong.
baby, its nothing about insecurities. its just so sad that although we meet up often during holidays but we spend only a few hours together. sad knnnn? due to my work and school. :(
haish im sorry people.
im seriously sorry baby.
guess now i need my time alone again.
miss u lots dear. <3
it feels like as though sem exam is in 2 weeks time.
a lil bit too much i know.
but i just cant sit still.
ader2 jerr is on my mind.
*cds project.. i better get it done by wed. (mon to wed straight i'm meeting syuk) :o thanks syuk!
* Oc project is postponed! :D to 15 jan.
*CSAS project everything, the final set have to be handed in by next thurs. :s
*TD im still stuck and im still like.."wth is going on?" i hate that.
*PIPC and OC idk whats wrong with electure.. i wanna study pleeeeaaassee!
*applied mathematics.. im still so sad over my results. :'(
* OC test, i studied that like a mad shit (hahaha! nga imagine a shit getting mad burok seii!) but in the end, i failed by 4 marks.
*Quizes coming up. AFTER NEW YEAR *have a good rest huh?* urggghhh!
* i just realised that TD have practical test. and as usual i started to say. shiiitt!
other than school...
* on th 19th jan.. im afraid.. i dont want it to come but what can i do? i have to..
*will not be working at cbtl for 2 weeks. due to school. for sure my salary so low.. how to cover up my ezlink payment? ..
*baby is starting to work too. alhamdullilah. at least he have more income, so that he wont be financially tight too and he wont be bored while waiting for me to reach home..
but this means lesser time for us. gain something, lose something. i know. but our schedule are opposing each other. maybe during times when he's working, i could study. again, lose something, gain something. aiyoyoyo. im so gonna miss baby alot. expecially when we have less time to spend and now we have lesser than less time to spend.
and term two is not long people! Its damn fast adding on TP have alot of tests..
all of these, add them up = i wanna shout then i wanna cry.
im too weak to even act strong.
people have been asking me
"ayu, u okayy? why are u so sad?"
and i'll be answering them
" ouh.. nothing. im not sad chill. :) its just that alot of things rae runnign through my mind"
thanks people for ur concern. but i know u know those words are for u not to be worried about me. cant believe that my facade didnt work again. guess this time im really too weak to even act strong.
baby, its nothing about insecurities. its just so sad that although we meet up often during holidays but we spend only a few hours together. sad knnnn? due to my work and school. :(
haish im sorry people.
im seriously sorry baby.
guess now i need my time alone again.
miss u lots dear. <3