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Thursday, January 7, 2010, 9:20:00 PM
a promise made should be something that we should hold on
have to admit, at that point when i made that promise to you, i didnt think before i made it.
i thought it was a mistake, cause i know i can never do it.
a promise made. i cant play around with the word promise.
so therefore, no matter how hard it is, i'm trying my very best to fight with the temptations.
I'm always surrounded by people who are smoking.
cause almost all my friends, expecially close ones do.
its hard seriously.
but knowing u will scold me if i were to do it again, shows how much u care.
u wont stop me if it will bring good to me right?
it goes the same way for me dear.
scold me. be mad with me. cause if u're not, u're only pampering me more. and to pamper me this way wont bring me any good. i'm the kind of girl who need to be scolded to know that its wrong.
i need u to guide me through. and im trying my very best to guide u too.
as for my girlfriends.
i know u're very concern about how much hurt im feeling.
baby faz asked me " u can run away but till how long are u gonna run away? u're strong enough to hear everything that he said, but how long are u gonna keep quiet and keep the hurt inside?"
my honeys
actually i myself am unsure of what im doing.
idk why im feeling so much of indifference.
maybe im too tired and stressed out with studies and family and work
that i just wanna be happy with him
never deny sometimes i do cry inside
but never forget of all the happiness he brought into my life.
sometimes i do wish he ain't this way
but i dont want him to change because of me
i want him to change for himself
yes i agree im running away from it
and idk until when i could hold on
as days goes by i could only pray to go through all this obstacles He brought into my life with a stronger heart
sometimes i felt as though im not being good enough for him
it is always him who listen to my daily stories
listen to my anger, sadness, and also happiness
i dont think i laways did that?
i hardly have time for him too.
when he have all his time for me
still trying to be better.
have never stopped to be better
cause i wanna be the best in his eyes, not other girls.
as he is all that my heart see
and i just realised
when a couple encounter an obstacle, they would either talk things over nicely or fight with voices raised (i hate that, i'll get so scared). but both ways the situation is never sweet, cause it will only hurt both parties. however when everything have settled down and things are back to normal, they would then realised how much they love and miss each other. the best part is, they went through it together!
after every fight i had with baby, my feelings for him gets deeper and i miss him more that i used to "miss-him-alot"
after every ending of every fight, i am just relieved that i am still his.
have to admit, at that point when i made that promise to you, i didnt think before i made it.
i thought it was a mistake, cause i know i can never do it.
a promise made. i cant play around with the word promise.
so therefore, no matter how hard it is, i'm trying my very best to fight with the temptations.
I'm always surrounded by people who are smoking.
cause almost all my friends, expecially close ones do.
its hard seriously.
but knowing u will scold me if i were to do it again, shows how much u care.
u wont stop me if it will bring good to me right?
it goes the same way for me dear.
scold me. be mad with me. cause if u're not, u're only pampering me more. and to pamper me this way wont bring me any good. i'm the kind of girl who need to be scolded to know that its wrong.
i need u to guide me through. and im trying my very best to guide u too.
as for my girlfriends.
i know u're very concern about how much hurt im feeling.
baby faz asked me " u can run away but till how long are u gonna run away? u're strong enough to hear everything that he said, but how long are u gonna keep quiet and keep the hurt inside?"
my honeys
actually i myself am unsure of what im doing.
idk why im feeling so much of indifference.
maybe im too tired and stressed out with studies and family and work
that i just wanna be happy with him
never deny sometimes i do cry inside
but never forget of all the happiness he brought into my life.
sometimes i do wish he ain't this way
but i dont want him to change because of me
i want him to change for himself
yes i agree im running away from it
and idk until when i could hold on
as days goes by i could only pray to go through all this obstacles He brought into my life with a stronger heart
sometimes i felt as though im not being good enough for him
it is always him who listen to my daily stories
listen to my anger, sadness, and also happiness
i dont think i laways did that?
i hardly have time for him too.
when he have all his time for me
still trying to be better.
have never stopped to be better
cause i wanna be the best in his eyes, not other girls.
as he is all that my heart see
and i just realised
when a couple encounter an obstacle, they would either talk things over nicely or fight with voices raised (i hate that, i'll get so scared). but both ways the situation is never sweet, cause it will only hurt both parties. however when everything have settled down and things are back to normal, they would then realised how much they love and miss each other. the best part is, they went through it together!
after every fight i had with baby, my feelings for him gets deeper and i miss him more that i used to "miss-him-alot"
after every ending of every fight, i am just relieved that i am still his.
hold on to ur promise dear cause im still trying my best to hold on tight to mine.