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Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.
Thursday, May 12, 2011, 10:48:00 PM
helllooooo! like finally i can update my blog. well daily training plus weekly test make me wanna faint. today was our mid yr paper. i really hope i ll get gd results. cause i am afraid that i wont be confident for my finals. plus plus although i dont plan to work in this industry *theres a slight change in my future plan* i still wann to get the certificate. yknow at least smthg to feel good about for this training. due to this training, my menu is limited, i cant watch movies, lack of sleep * my eye bags are really getting worse* etc etc etc. i cant stand it. for lunch i eat campbell soup & for dinner i ll eat maggie. yes every single day. tell me how depressing is that?
everybody tapao food from home. my mum is working so thats the reason why im eating all this junks? speaking of junks, during lectures we keep munching & i swear my tummy fats is getting bigger! but mine is soft fats. atiqah is jealous of it. hehehehehehe!
our daily routine : 1130 reach JI eat lunch, 1230 start lecture 4pm dinner 430pm practical 730pm dissmissed.
every single day doing the same thing. but tmr i'll be having full day of practical *fainting* so i REALLY need my rest tonight.
move on from that, i guess Henry have charisma? haha. idk to me he dont have the looks, he look fierce. but he could just make everyone happy & laugh abt him but of course the guys arent as bad as the girls luhh. hehh. he could just pamper us joke w us like nobody's buisness & he s married. okayy so what right? but it makes me think: i told baby before that w him keep on entertaining girls & stuff they could have their own illusion or whatsoever feelings of "crush" and stuff. like how henry is. but from what i see henry treats every of us, girls, the same. so maybe thats how baby treats his other girl friends too? *thinking*
so 2 exams down, shift training & final exams left to go. then im free from this training!! shift training starts next thurs. so heres my schedule:
thurs: off
fri: off
sat: 8am to 8pm
sun: 8am to 8pm
mon: off
tues 8pm to 8am
wed: off
i swear i hate this. if i work morning, the weather will make me melt like ice cream luhh. then if night shift, my mind will shut down. ahhh! FML!
talking about baby, i have only sundays & 2 to 3 hours to spend time w him. both of us are busy & tired due to school stuffs, we hardly communicate. maybe cause now we dont have any topics to talk about? i feel that way. but till when will this continue? idk. me: distance w strong communication w no miscommunication is fine.
faz: but distance could make feelings to fade.
sighsigh. in this kind of condition, cant i have smthg to motivate me to be strong? why i keep hearing negative stuffs.
see i ve told u, im useless.