a chronology of thoughts.
welcome
Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.
Sunday, July 17, 2011, 9:40:00 PM
Happy 4th birthday Danish! :D
Tuesday, July 5, 2011, 7:47:00 PM
yesterday i had two nightmares. one, all the ppl who rewang that time during my bro's wedding were hanging out at idk where. then suddenly iwann said smthg.iwann: ehh smalam aku g satu tempat nie. pelacur smua baik2 sial. gd service ttm nye! (irry just kept quite)
(Zul, rudy, rasheed & aisyah went speechless tooo)
bby: baik pe. kau tk tau nak ajak aku. g skrg uhh. mendak siol.
me: ahh bgos uhh tuhh. laki perangai da gian cm nie uhh.
bby: ehh u knape? wann jln uhh.
& they head to iwann's bike. O.O
i ran aft them & zul ran aft me. while crying,
me: b, u tkmo mepek uhh favour sia.
bby: ni euhh pompan, da bising kat kite beyy skrg nak melalak plak. leceh uhh.
me: *so heartbroken & return him back the necklace and ran*
didnt know that i was running towards a busy road. so i was hit and died.
second dream was, rewind back to the lepak part but iwann nvr say anything abt prostitudes. all of us were damn tired so we wann to go back to the chalet and off to bed. but we cant! cause there are "cik kaks" all around us!
-.-" what a dream mansssss! & idkw whenever a i dreamt abt breaking up w bby or wtvr bad dream abt my relationship w baby, zul will always be chasing aft me. hahahah! i think its because of whenever i gt prob w bby i always cry on Zul first. hehhs.
bf dreamt that he punched a guy who asked for my no. HAHAHAHAH! funny but cute. hehhs.
everyday without fail, i will always dream of baby, be it good or bad dreams. (:
Monday, July 4, 2011, 7:58:00 PM
ive been watcing this movie lately. & ive been listening to the song almost everyday. idk its been almost 2 weeks and i am still crying about it. prolly due to pms? idkidkidkidk. can u imagine i hold back my tears, and cry so much *randomly* when i was hanging out with bf? well, ive asked around what are their opinions for the ship to sink. alot of response of course but i believe, its due to they confidently said " this ship is unsinkable" i mean we all know how this could change as long as He wants to change it.
ahhhh! i hope this unstable emotions will be stable again soon. pls pls pls! ='(
Sunday, June 26, 2011, 8:18:00 PM
Congratulations bro! ure leading a new chapter of life now, be patience with any obstacles Allah tests. believe in Him and never gives up, insyaallah things will be fine. it feels so fast. i feel damn old already. second bro will be planning for his soon. idk, i was speechless but yet happy for today. doesnt start good for me, i throw my anger to baby's friends, and im really so sorry. im feeling lost and i really dk what to do.
i really thank all my frens and baby's frens for helping us out. really thanks alot. & thank to fazlin, matin, zaf an an for coming down to the wedding too. i really appreciate all the effort. ((:
Sunday, June 19, 2011, 9:36:00 PM
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY! it was a surprise so non are prepared. when i reached home just now,ayah: ehhh whats that? *pointing to the bag*
me: idkkk. u see uhh.
ayah: whats this? ehh cake untuk ayah ehh? =D
me: hahaha who else right?
so yea finally i saw that happy face on my dad. since it was a surprise so my parents are masai. hehe.
Saturday, June 18, 2011, 8:28:00 PM
RYAN REYNOLDSSSS! hehehe he's damn cute. cant stop watching the proposal again and again. hehhs. and his body! ahhhhhh! *melts* sorry pic blur. its kinda small so i enlarge it then end up blur. i like that pic alot. aiyoyoyo. why u so cute one. why ur body so hot one. i cant stop pestering bf abt ryan.
okayy i cant stop melting. hehehehehhe.
Thursday, June 16, 2011, 8:07:00 PM
today bf sweet talk alot. hehhs. maybe i shouldnt say sweet talk luhh its more to serious confessions. which will happen once in a blue moon. so of course in the end i couldnt stop smiling. hehhs. well, time pass by kinda slow for us in the morning. during break he text
b: if only time fly slow when im with you
m: awww <3 why u so sweet?
b: i feel like i just wanna spend time with u.
& later he texted
b: b, i gt a secret to tell u.
m: okayy what is it?
b: i miss you.
omg i re read the text like upteen times man. the last time i heard him confessing that he miss me was my 18th birthday. how long is that?
i love it when he called me up randomly. but it made me feel awkward /:
& throughout my relationship w bf, ive witnessed a lot of changes in him. im so thankful to see those effort made by him to change. insyaallah slowly he will eventually turn into a better man and guide me through. amin. ((:
i love u syg. cant wait to meet u tmr.