a chronology of thoughts.
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Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.
Friday, August 14, 2009, 10:39:00 AM
imy badly although we just met yest..
Hey hey honeys, bunnys, cutey pies, and etcs. hahahas!
Wow.! long time i didnt update my blog huh.
Hmmm.. well, admit there's alot happening.
!st thing first, my exam is like starting next friday and yet im like in my malas mood though i know time flies fast.
Haish. Ive been wanting to study but always distracted and i really mean always!
I cant wait for holidays, so i can work. talking about that, I'm going back to KFC during holidays. I super miss them alot cn?
I've planned to work morning shift for KFC, say 7am to 3pm then work coffeebean at 5pm to 9pm.
Not everyday like that uhk. maybe twice per week then the rest i work at coffeebean like 8 hrs? And im sure though i give 1 week full schedule, i will receive at least one day break. SO yea nth much to think about it uhk.
I really need the money.. to continue supporting myself and pay off my debts.
That's my plan for holidays but then now now what needs my attention most is of course my studies. Ayu! u can make it through and u have to. NO supp papers! Do it for the first time, and prove to yourself that you can do it.
Haish, i can anticipate that my 1.2 will be damn busy. More harder topics and inclusive of CDS. plus not to forget WORK!
kk all that worries shall put aside. Worry about now ayu. the present!
Irry, we have been going through a hectic life now (cheyy bboal like u my mataer like that ) hahahs! 8 mnths seeiii!! =pp
But yea as i was saying, its easier said than done uhk. we shouldnt get distracted due to all this. like ive said, " U want to be angry with them, feel like killing them, hating them, is fine but NEVER CRY OR GET HURT BY THEM AGAIN" such a idk-what-to-say phrase.
That should be in my mind constantly to get thngs done. Cause you and i both knw that our life is not only about this, there's still alot that needs our attention. like i've said yesterday, idk whether im making the right decision. im thinking, am i able to go through the hurt? I mean, this goes without saying uhk. confirm hurt, just the matter of can we handle it?
My ayah is facing a problem there and he is sick. Haish after one, another came. ayah, just take care and "PATIENCE IS THE KEY IN LIFE" again, why cnt i apply it to my life now?? -.-
Why am i with you now? Why am i fated to know you? Why cant we just remain as who we were? When we saw each other, we only smile, not knowing anything about each other. Now, from being strangers, we've become more than a stranger? Even if it is just friends, i believe i told u this before, every single friend of my will receive my care and concern.
Due to i know who u are, u own my heart.
Never deny, u make me cry, u made e confused, u made me laugh, u made me smile, u made me wanna stranggle u, u made miss u so.. im still feeling the insecurities.
Both of us have made our mistakes. Im sry if things btwn me and my ex made u feel that the past is still affecting us, i know its hard to see someone with their ex, i've been through it. and i cant hide it from u anymore, recently someone just confessed.
U told me, its up to u, its ur life. that really proves to be that u're still feeling unsure of my feelings. I HAVE ALOT OF GUYFRENS and i have alot of abg angkats. but the ones that still stay by my side is my abg azri and abg faiq.
I am not perfect and i'll never be one. My past and whoever i am now is a total change. I have to accept the fact, that no matter what, i can only be the best for everyone but i can never be perfect for everyone. I hope, u and my friends and family will get what i'm trying to say..
babe, we're gonna have study date often huh! make sure study heh!
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